I like to journal. My pen and paper is a place in which I can pour my heart out without judgement. The lines are also a place where I can untangle my thoughts and allow my words to sit and rest. I like the structure and art of it too. Placing a specific word into a sentence, arranging the sentences into my story, and adding a voice to give it some character. The art comes into play with the actual act of writing out each word. I prefer cursive to manuscript because I like the curves and loops of the letters. Of course I have tested out many a pen, and I found that my favorite is the fine point black sharpie. There is one problem…no eraser! Therefore, the process can be slow and painful because I want my page to be mistake free…there is no rough draft in journaling!
When I go back and look at my past entries, very rarely is there a page that is flawless. I do relish in the pages where the handwriting is neat, the words are marching in a cursive slant, and not one blemish stands to call attention or take away from the other neatly written words on the page. Other pages have words with lines through them; words floating in mid-air because I left one out, and entire sentences with long, mustache scribble marks. However, the worst case scenario is a page with a full black “X” stretched from corner to corner.
Isn’t that life? There are some days that are flawless! A beach day with your family, a girls-night-out with friends, or a date with your favorite guy. But, there are also days that I want to put a big black “X” on or completely white-out altogether!
Some of your days are going to be ones for the memory books, while others will be ones that you just want to “White OUT”! As we readjust our daily lives to the events that are now facing us, I am reminded of the story in Matthew 14 “Jesus Walks on Water”. When the storms and winds terrified the disciples, Jesus spoke to them and said, “Don’t be afraid.” He also said, “Take courage, I am here!” Despite his words, Peter still shouted out for help. This is my favorite part; Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. Jesus does not reach out to control the difficult situations that try to sink us, He reaches out to the PERSON who is having a difficult time. If you are having a day that you just want to scribble out, take Jesus’s hand and let HIM write out your day!
I want to leave you with a line from Paul David Tripp’s, New Morning Mercies., “God stands with you in power, glory, goodness, wisdom, and grace. He can defeat what you can’t, and He intends these troubles to be not enemies that finish you but tools of grace that transform you.”
Love and Pray for your beautiful faces,